i hate it when pp r able to go on stage.. i hate it.. y cant i?

stupid rite? the selfishness in mi surfacing. or perhaps i'm jus envious... whichever.. i have no rights to feel.

i gave up when He gave it to me. I gave up! it's nobody's fault but mine...

i missed playing.. miss it a hell lot.. miss seeing pp below the stage.. miss the fun.. miss making mistakes.. miss jamming.. miss evaluation.. miss wearing the wrong dress code(all the time-kena saboh).. miss setup.. u pp will nv noe tt satisfaction.. i miss them all..

n now i dun even wana tok about the past.. i tink i'm scared.. but scared of wat.. *shruggz* i have no idea.. i dun tink i'll ever have the chance again. will i?